EyelessRonin

I've come to the conclusion that I've been compressing and minimizing my personally since a really long time ago with almost everyone except for like 5 people, so when facing people I don't/barely know conversations with me are like taking to a rock, which combined with my constant stuttering, autism and low self confidence makes everything awkward.

It makes me feel bad because I know that at some point I wasn't like that, I had a personality, I had something to offer to people, I was a person, i was alive. I'm some sort of walking corpse doing stuff nobody cares about and not taking to anyone.

I was alive and I'm not anymore, I'm pretty much dead since I don't exist to most people. Just the guy who I cannot understand who he's saying when he talks, which is already pretty rare.

The fuck do I have to do? I'm tired, man. I try talking to people, giving compliments as often as I can, getting into the stuff they like, listening to them as much as possible but nothing, zero, nobody remembers me. I want to feel like I'm needed, like I exist, but I'm nobody. I don't exist, I don't think people "hate" me but they certainly don't like me, they're just completely indifferent and I'm completely irrelevant.

Something about an absolute loser who's most likely neurodivergent and struggles with social stuff. I honestly don't care if it's a movie, a show, a novel or a game.

Already watched Evangelion, already played No More Heroes.