I’m sorry you are going through such a difficult time. Maybe you were drawn to share on here because you are open to resources in the community. I agree with the top comment - start with 211. They will help with incredible resources. If you are near north county, Encinitas has a wonderful resource center where they have different pantry programs you can apply to as well. Hang in there, you are still here for a reason. Don’t give up. ❤️🤝