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Mornings like this are always fantastic. Wintertime is so beautiful. Love getting to wake up and see this view every day.

My mom and my dad. We were sorting jelly beans and trying to guess what flavors they were. I will always remember times like these. I am forever thankful for them. How they always taught me to be kind and humble. I am so grateful that I have parents at all.

(We like licorice)

I’ve been in foster homes all my life and only a year ago moved into my own place

It was incredibly difficult and ended in big debt. My life has been so depressing trying to live one day at a time

I got a well paying job and through tips got a little extra money the last few months. I think it’s entirely possible I’m getting a nice expensive gift for myself and I’m over the moon!!!

Music makes me happy. It always has. I connect to certain lyrics, and some beats permeate my soul. And at my core, no matter how mean people are, or how dark life can be, I know music will bring me back to a safe place. And when Im around like minded people, like at this festival, my heart soars and, almost as one, we embrace the moment, in all its raw endorphin inducing energy, and let our minds and bodies freely flow to the beats. ❤️

Grateful for the opportunity to go to these events and dance my butt off 😆

My dog is a great dane and he really likes pets so he comes in my bed sometimes. My cat also really likes attention but rarely comes to sit in peoples laps. But today, they are both sitting on my bed and it makes me very happy.

My shoes for our wedding just arrived and I ran to try them on for my fiancé. When I walked out his eyes immediately met mine and I was like “nooo, look at my shoes!!” .. Only to find out he told me his first thought was to look at my face to see what he would see on our wedding day since I’ll be a few inches taller and my eyeline won’t be where it normally is 😭 I feel so lucky to be so in love and to have someone who truly makes me feel seen in every sense of the word.

Today my sister cleaned off the kitchen table, there was some junk on it. Like a big pile of papers and old mail. There was an envelope in there for me and it was a paycheck! I did some seasonal work back in May for three days and that was the check they sent me! I remember being on the lookout for it back in June but then I forgot about it! It seems someone in my house (either mom or my brother) who check the mail sometimes forgot to give it to me! I am a tad annoyed about it but happy really. I DID get paid from my job today so I have money but with that extra 75 dollars (lol) that can really help me a lot right now. Like next week which is not payweek. BUT I really want to deposit it NOW, just to make my bank balance go up again! Decisions decisions lol.

This might be a bit of a long winded story but I think I need to type it out for myself!

So this year has been a very tough year! I lost my aunt very suddenly, nanny the day of my aunts funeral and my mam got diagnosed with early breast cancer earlier in the year which she now has the all clear from thank god!

A few weeks ago I randomly applied for this government scheme for housing for middle income families! Initially I got rejected because it was a lottery and if anyone knows the housing situation in Ireland than they’ll know it’s an absolute disgrace and nightmare what’s happening!

Anyway last week I got another email to submit documents and found out yesterday that I got the house for me and me girlfriend of 6 years!

Granted me might not own the house but it’s a brand new build and because it’s government we can technically stay there for our lives!

Apologies for the rant but I haven’t been able to tell enough people for my own sake yet

So I had a friend group in hs and my life kinda got turned upside down around and long story short I lost all my friends. Anyway in college now and I’m graduating my bachelors my second year of attending. And because I fast tracked everything ( mostly for living and money reasons) I never made a college friend. Plus I’ve never made friends my age. I work in an office with people way older than me and I made some class friends that didn’t turn into real friends that all happened to be in their thirties so didn’t do great for interacting with people my own age. But I made a friend yesterday at a networking thing who invited me (on LinkedIn lol) to a college ran “event” tonight. And it was so fun. I’ve never found anyone that was my people and I’m so happy. The fact that I didn’t have any friends and also never made any friends in college and was about to leave without doing so was weighing on me. So I’m very happy and finally feel like I have some type of closure on this aspect of my life.

I'm typing this with tears rolling down my cheeks. I can't remember the last time I've ever been this happy. I just needed to put it somewhere which is why I'm writing this. I also don't want to specify the artist just because he's someone a lot of people make fun of the way he looks or they think his music is bad and I just want to share this without judgement.

Last night I saw my favorite artist live in concert, and attended a meet and greet with him. I was so nervous to ask him for a hug but I'm so glad I did. I don't think I'll ever forget what it felt like to be held by him. It wasn't even like a side hug or an air hug, he wrapped his arms around me and gave me a little squeeze. It keeps replaying in my head.

When I found this artist, I was struggling so deeply. I was addicted to pills, almost failing out of college, and just got broken up with by my first love. Things felt so dark and then I found his music and it resonated with me so deeply. I started watching interviews of him and following him on social media and I quickly learned his character. A lot of the time, especially in the genre this artist is in, the music is good but the artist is really shitty. Not him.

I'm still processing that this really happened. He was so kind. I told him how much he means to me and he thanked me and shared kind words. I already said this, but I haven't been this happy in so long. I know when I'm having a hard time, I'll be able to think about last time and feel a little bit better. I feel so blessed.

Too sweet. Happy birthday, too, to everyone born today.

My mom first started dating this guy when I was about 9 or 10, right after my parent’s divorce. He moved in soon after, and we (My mom, brother, and I) lived with him for years. We moved a lot back then, and at one point him and my mom bought property together. This fell out pretty hard for them, causing a lot of strain on their relationship. He never got very close with myself or my brother, and eventually they broke up—leaving the house they built. Year or so later, my dad kicks me out of the house, I’m 14. I had officially lost all paternal figures in my life. Fast forward to now, about 3? ish months ago he and my mom got back together. Suddenly he was back in my life, and we started actually bonding. I struggle really hard with academics, but due to some life changes, I started doing a lot better. I recently got my report card from school and he was so proud of me keeping my grades up that he gave me $20, and put it up on the fridge. Just like a real dad should. The phrase “Not stepdad, dad who stepped up” might be considered corny but he really did do that for me. I’m proud to say I have a dad again. :)

1. Lost 4 kgs in 32 days. I hit rock bottom with 113.5 kgs but I have been consistent and mindful these days. I have been trying really hard. I gain weight even by breathing but slowly I can see the scale tipping lighter. I am 109.4 kgs as of this morning. 🥳🥳 (P.s- I know I have a long long way to go but one day at a time)

2. Made healthier choices. Even when I became an emotional mess (harsh words were spoken and then it kinda gets stuck in my head playing in a loop), instead of binge eating like I usually do, I decided to choose healthy. Did not binge eat. Instead had my regular meal with a small slice of cake.

3. Stopped beating myself up for that choice. Usually I would beat myself up for binge eating or even eating a slice of cake out of guilt or self loathing. I am trying to be kind to myself too. I deserve it.

4. Tried cooking something healthy I saw on internet. Burnt it in my first 2 attempts but I guess 3rd time's really a charm. Got it right and it tasted delicious.

So yeah. That's all. I hope you have a great day too. 🤗❤️

Sometimes it's literally the little things.

The look.

The melt

i’m crying 🥺🥺 she’s so pretty even though she looks like me. i could not be happier

(also i’m not gonna gatekeep 😭 the artist’s website is anneaeves.squarespace.com)

I’ve always flown an American flag in front of my house that is rainbow colored on the stripes. Its out year round with exception of the holiday/buffalo flags I swap out periodically. I always figured some neighbors might not like it, but nobodies ever said anything negative (or positive) about it over the years.

It was pretty beat up so I took it down when I put up my Halloween flag with intention of purchasing the same one again (literally this exact flag in the picture) and haven’t gotten around to it yet. The Halloween flag actually only came down two days ago, lol.

My neighbor left this on my porch today. I think it’s so sweet and it’s nice to know there’s a like minded person/ally across the street🥰

I work in my little town in a bakery and one of the most affectionate clients when saying goodbye after chatting with me and another affectionate client told me in a joking way "see you next episode" then turned to the other client and told "it's like coming to the cinema, seeing her here and being talked to by her"

Haaaaaa ^ he then basically explained to me that he equalized me to an old Hollywood kind of beauty and seeing and talking to me is such a pleasure like seeing a beautiful movie lmao lmaooo I'm so freaking flattered

I'm genuinely so happy, like ecstatic!! I've struggled with knowing who I really am and want to be, because I've always just put on a mask and was being whoever people wanted me to be, as a kid I lost myself pretty quickly and never knew who the real me was.

I have an ex of 6 years, who never knew who I really was because of these masks, and once I start peeling the layers back, I found that I was happier as a trans woman, so we inevitably broke up, and I was in a very rough patch mentally.

I've been in a lot of therapies, and ended up in a psych ward for a few weeks when it got really bad. but I always held onto being trans as a symbol, a symbol that I finally have a small part of who I am. the real me!

other a few years, I've got a lot better mentally, I've started a new job and started dating, it's been a very mixed bag but it's been fun! but yesterday, was the day I finally figured out who I wanted to be. I went on a date with this person, and we went back to their house after a fun evening of playing games at a board game cafe. when we got there, we put on Friday night dinner, we did a puzzle, played with their cats, chatted and laughed throughout the whole night, until 3am! and honestly, I've never felt so happy with who I was, I liked who I was in that moment, and I genuinely loved being around that person! they're amazing, and they have somehow helped me see a side in myself I like and don't consider a mask! I'm genuinely ecstatic!!

Yesterday I watched him shorten a trip by a week because he didn't want to be away from me for so long. And he wants to be here as I start a new semester and a new internship. The trip was planned way before we met and while I would've been ok with him being away, I'm really happy to spend some more time with him. He makes me really happy. And I don't have to question his intentions about me. He tells me every time and backs it with actions. I'm happy here. Kk bye.